Say bye to Sweet-heart-life

Hello everyone, as I stated at my previous post that I will be create a brand new blog very soon and here! my new freshy blog had created and please support me as usual kay? thx everyone, I love you guys.... so here's the link of my new blog http://shareyourberries.blogspot.com/

Feel free to visit my new blog just click the link above, I will update my post often....^^ again, thx for your support and I appreciate it.

Bye, my past and hello tomorrow!!~ xD

It's painful to tell

Okay, I accidentally miss-click and ......I read my blog again..... Seriously, I miss my blog, and my supporters. And yet, I couldn't write all these time it's neither of I got no time to write nor I am not interest on my blog anymore, but it is because of it's painful to re-read my blog again. It actually depressing me, I know I should accept the fact and all the past. Everything past away, I should stand out and tell everyone that I'm okay with everything, and I accepted. But I just couldn't, memories will never ever been erase and yet I am not hiding anything behind but, I just don't wish that every single pieces of the post in my blog could remind me of my past, I wish to get through my life and forget about it.

I know I'm dig...==" But what should I do to just....step out? I need a brand new life seriously. So, here, painful to tell you guys, I am going to delete this old, messy blog and start a new one. A new journal. Support me? ^^

偶然

多么偶然的一次，
那么久以来的第一次，
我们再次重遇。

没有像以前那样的开心，
也没有什么特别的感觉，
只觉得，我们彼此都有自己的生活。也许这次的偶然将会是我们相遇的最后一次。

最熟悉的陌生人，这句话，对于我们来说的确是最贴切的。
没有任何交集，更没有任何的交谈，你我心想靠近，而却选择原地不动，
没有任何的理由，只应这样的客套对我们来说已不需要。
只要对方是开心的，心里也会倍感安慰。

是什么原因呢？放下了么？ 我也不晓得。。。。
当初的情意还在么？ 真的不懂。
可见到对方的时候，心情会突如其来的平静和欣慰。

也许这是人们所谓的缘分和联系吧。

痛

不知道为什么，
这几天，
我的心好痛，
好难过。。。。
总觉得酸酸的。。。。

最讨厌自己了。。。。真没用。。。。。：（




*时间根本就帮不上什么忙*

: (

外在于内在同时兼具又如何？
这么多年来那么努力又如何？
自己最想要的东西始终得不到。。。。。。

耿耿于怀

刚才开了fb,看了她的profile,我还是会心痛。那种不甘心的念头到底还要缠着我多久。我很希望把所有的事忘得一干二净，开始我的新生活，可是每次只要想到从前的事，我还是心有不甘。

和以前不同的是，我不再去逃避，不再有怀恨在心的念头，更不再耍孩子气，我用于面对，有勇气的尽我全力去忘掉以前的事。很明显的，这样的态度成功地让我放下。看见她，我真的会有那么一点的感慨。可是又能怎么样呢？ 我从来都没有想把她扯进这件事当中，然而事情发生最主要的原因也是因为她。

咳，想对你们说的话真的很多，可是每次见面都不知从何说起，况且说了又能怎么样， 耿耿于怀的人始终是自己啊。。。。

Dessert with my bestie @ Desa Park

Hello everyone, It has been a long time that I din't update my post and my recent picha.~!! SO, I'm here to fulfill all your wishes now~!! Went to dessert house at Desa Park last few days with my besties (Shirnie & Joevy) for having a great breakfast there. Below are da picha we took that day~! Hope you guys enjoy <3

Japanese Cheese Cake

Marble Cheese Cake

Fruits Tarts~!

Banana Chocolate mousse~!

Me & Shirnie~!

Aww ~!!

THAT'S ALL....hope you guys enjoy ya!!! <3>

Shout Out Loud!

Enough enough ENOUGH!!! I want to SHOUT OUT LOUD to everyone who regconize me and tell them
IT'S ENOUGH!!!

I hope I can cool myself down now, but I just couldn't.
Why is that there are so many obstacles in my life?
I know, all these things are just a little twist in my life,
I should face it positively instead of blowing off here.
I definitely know I shouldn't do all these things.
BUT
I just couldn't clam down.

Well, I think it's the time to change my enviroment, I'm not hiding but I just feeling like I've to change everything by using my bare hand.
Like,
Friends,
Habits,
attitude,
and the most important one,
My future...




PS:*Stop your bull shit selfishness, I am so tiring to be one of your friend*
IT'S ENOUGH!!!

一步一步......慢慢的......

大家好啊! 又是我啦!! 哈哈...好白痴的开场白...说真的,有时侯还蛮讨厌写部落格的,因为我总是想不到新鲜或者是比较吸引人的开场白.哈哈...

终于要踏进4月份了,很开心,也很期待. 我觉得现在是我人生中最关键的时刻,也有一股冲动很想快点达到我的要求与完成我的计划. 再过几天, 我就真的要把我脑里草率的计划很有规律与规模的写出来,做成一份报告.哈哈!!! 好夸张,其实不会做成报告啦,不过会很仔细的写出来,因为现在我脑里面的计划实在是太草率了,我担心到最后会完成不了.

与其说担心,倒不如说害怕吧.我真的很害怕面对现实,我害怕我现在所想的,所期待的,不会发生.我更害怕前方会有什么事情令我的未来变得更糟糕.所以,与其到时候才找方法来解决,不如我现在就做好防范措施,让自己的内在与外在不断的进步与提升,到时候如果真的遇到什么问题,我看我都可以利用我的智慧去解决吧..

也许你们会觉得我很忌人忧天吧,可是,我却觉得我现在所准备和担心的,都只是为了我未来的保障.现在,一步一步地进行和实现着我的计划.希望一切会很顺利吧.... 你们大家也要加油哦!!! 有计划和愿望的朋友们,就让我们一起去实现吧!! 加油!!!

一个人

终于有时间上线了...最近都很忙,我的好友们几乎都在投诉我没时间理她们吧.哈哈...别担心,很快地我就要辞去我现在的工作,专心地读书了...想到着,我都兴奋起来.哈哈

突然很想写出自己的心情和想法,却又不知从何写起. Hmm.... 就从读书的事情说起好了. 我已经选了我自己想读的科目也选了学校....就这样而已....可是不知道为什么,还是有一种莫名其妙的感觉一直压抑着. 我说大家, 不知从什么时候开始,我不再对你们诉说自己的想法和感受了呢? 虽然知道你们都很担心我, 可我却觉得我不再是以前那个无话不说的我了,而我自己所告诉你们的,全部都不是事实的全部,全部都有所保留, 总是觉得自己在撑着.

好讨厌这样的我啊,真的很痛恨这样的自己. 该怎么说呢? 我真的不想自己一个人面对和解决所有的问题啊, 这种坚韧,理智的个性, 让我开始觉得好累. 有时候真的很想让自己幼稚,放松一下,可我却怎么也过不了我自己. 爸,妈,从小到大你们都觉得我很独立,不用依赖你们.你们都觉得所有的事情我总是会为我自己安排好,甚至会觉得我已经计划好所有的事,而且这将会是对的选择,即使失败了,我也已经为我自己安排好失败后的事情.所以从来都不需要你们来为我操心. 我说....爸,妈...我好累啊, 我真的很想像哥哥那样的依赖你们, 大学的事,从头到尾都是我一个人包办,我现在甚至需要考虑和计划15年以后的事啊.真想告诉你们,我才18岁,我还需要你们啊,偶尔让我依赖你们一下,可以吗?

哈,没想到写到这里,我还竟然为自己流泪, 真的搞不懂这些泪是在可怜自己,还是安慰着自己必需体谅父母亲的苦心. 我说大家,真羡慕你们啊,有父母亲的陪同,有父母亲的协助,一起去面对你们的未来. 你们一定要好好地珍惜啊...

曾经有人对我说过这样的一句话...."美丽的并非这个世界,其实真正美丽的是你坦然面对和有勇气接受这个世界丑恶的一面,每个人的个性是上天的恩赐,所以要好好地利用与珍惜." 当时我还小,不懂他在说什么,现在终于明白了. 在我明白的同时,我也有推翻着个说法的理由, 其实, 我并没有坦然面对世界的丑恶,也没有勇气接受,当时的我只是被美丽的假面蒙蔽了,所以世界是美丽的,当然,现在的我却看清要在这个世界生存,就必须懂得除了黑与白,还有灰色的那面.只要掌握灰色地带,我就有资格生存.我也只不过是被迫去面对而已.

还是会被自己的坚韧和理智的个性而连累. 是连累么? 我不懂......那种压迫感和压抑感,又有谁明白当中的矛盾呢? 还是得一个人去面对......

Reborn

Hey everyone. It's me. I think it's quite a long time I dint update my blog. haha NO worry guys! I'm fine. I really fine. Haha....

Quite strange for me to blog now. I mean....I've got no idea what to write about because a lot of things happened and changed during this time, and the...... I still fine, ha, god bless. I don't even know how to start my story, and, I... don't know where to start some more. But anyway, what was past had past. We should look further.

Okay. Time to go. I will try my best to post more about my life, in details.... and hope to meet you guys soon.

I won't betray my promise....Never....